Liam

Getting closer to the window Means getting closer to the sun  I still have hills to climb Before I can learn this lesson That there is no meaning behind what happened But it meant something to me Maybe you’ll ask Why couldn’t I be more direct But my body has frozen And my memories are flickering Behind my eyes  Like old forgotten, trimmed off bits Maybe I’m the idiot I’ll say it twice for your approval And go right back to being absent  Sucked into my phone I’m absent Chewing on something I can’t talk about Seeing you stuck under sheets For weeks in a row in a row a row We rowed around with mushrooms And the lights around were flickering  I miss the laughs oh so much  Oh, I cried so much I have to do this alone The window was left open for me The closer to the window The closer to the sun I won’t walk, I’ll run Then I’ll pace myself because I can’t gauge the distance And I have to reserve my energy I’ll see many more other sides I’m sure Before my time is come M...

  I have a date for the procedure! It’s July 26 this year! Joy joy joy!

Met with a local surgeon yesterday. I’m guessing the paint colors of the waiting room and offices were from Behr, maybe “Snowfall White” on the walls and “Pure White” on the woodwork because the trim is a bit cooler in tone, and kind of a gray in comparison to the wall. The furniture was slick - whites, grays, blacks, and accents of green from some tall, decorative plants. There were throw pillows. Clientele passing through mostly had black tights, cropped jackets, and blond streaks. The women behind the counter were warm and accommodating. I was given a coffee while I waited. My body was in pacing mode all morning and I had lots of questions prepared for asking. There were so many ways this visit could have gone. Leaving the office, my body was lighter and I couldn’t peel the smile off of my face. I’m at a place now where all I have to do is set a date and raise the funds. I plan to ask for help from friends and the social media world with this part. More on that soon.. Next week, I h...